omg... school starts tmr... and i'm in no condition to do so...

i may have just realised the extent of the unfairness from the start....

how all my efforts from the get-go were being undermined by things BEYOND MY CONTROL...

look... i'm not saying if it hadn't happen things would have been smoother or different... it's more or less that things would have concluded the same... i know my limits... i know what i'm capable of... it just hurt no one to try my best... only myself perhaps...

but just that it definitely played a MASSIVE part in deciding how things would have worked out....


that much i'm so damn sure...

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! i hate this feeling....

this last 1 year in taiwan sucks...

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i think i'm currently all whacked out with school starting and everything... i can't even think straight....

i seriously don't think i'm being pressured into anything... but if it's anything i hate the most... it's people who try to act as though they know everything just because they are going thru it....

bugger off...

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once i've had enough of disappointments (soon.. i guess).... i'm going to turn my back and run as far as possible... it's only human nature to want to do so....