sigh... repairing the laptop's gonna cost a bomb... the lcd screen is dead... oh well... connect out for the time being la... then can buy new one when go uni... lol...
it was nice going out with the guys at camp...
saturday with wei qi... ate the wadever manhattan fish thingy... lol... service wasn't that good la... got to ask 3 times for water before they serve... then went to some small space to watch chelsea vs man utd... jamie yeo's accent was a little bit of a turn off... but still quite nice la =p.. pj roberts was quite funny... lol... kept giving away the answers...
and sunday with clement... andrew and yan shen... ate at carls jr... and then talked a bit... then gave me this guardian angel gift thingy that they shared along with gerald... lol... thanks sia... after that went to arcade... saw this "pro" guy playing time crisis 4... die die dun want change to machine gun to fight terror bites.... wonder wads up with him... lost so much life just like that...
hmm... i finally understand how people could continuously harp on about something that was deemed to be so pointless... move on and stop whining i said... well maybe it isn't that easy after all... it's sort of the same situation... though mine being more superficial... wonders if it even existed... but i can only imagine what others were going through then...
so after that long... you start to wonder if healing would ever take place... but you can only continue to trust and have faith... and that seriously sucks...
it's just too bad...
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
back to pathetic square one...
still waiting ya...?
so after not hearing anything or seeing even the slightest anxiety or reaction at all... i think it really says alot about how much i misunderstood everything... and how it was a carefully fabricated sequence of events...
i mean seriously... ask me back then... even in my wildest imaginations... (and i assure you it can get pretty wild)... i would never ever have predicted something like this...
heck... if i could make barney and posse and his (or her?) magic bag come alive... this takes the cake doesn't it...? and don't even get me started on my previous 2 dreams...
nah... i'm joking about barney... but you get my drift...
it's an all new low... only because i got blind sided... but then again you can say i expected it some how.... just fell for a sucker punch...
for the first time... i'm feeling that little bit helpless... and not knowing what i should do next...
Newcastle wins Sunderland 2-0.... Owen scoring a brace... catch the highlights while it lasts...
sorry gone...
so after not hearing anything or seeing even the slightest anxiety or reaction at all... i think it really says alot about how much i misunderstood everything... and how it was a carefully fabricated sequence of events...
i mean seriously... ask me back then... even in my wildest imaginations... (and i assure you it can get pretty wild)... i would never ever have predicted something like this...
heck... if i could make barney and posse and his (or her?) magic bag come alive... this takes the cake doesn't it...? and don't even get me started on my previous 2 dreams...
nah... i'm joking about barney... but you get my drift...
it's an all new low... only because i got blind sided... but then again you can say i expected it some how.... just fell for a sucker punch...
for the first time... i'm feeling that little bit helpless... and not knowing what i should do next...
Newcastle wins Sunderland 2-0.... Owen scoring a brace... catch the highlights while it lasts...
sorry gone...
Monday, April 14, 2008
ironic if anything...
that what i thought was my beginning... was actually YOURS...? (case in point: we weren't sharing it...)
that what i thought would help... was actually the very hinderence and reason things coming to this....
not that i'm saying it would have been different... but it did put things in motion....
puts everything in perspective now eh...?
go ahead and mock my naivety in that case...
you guys seriously need to check out ansel's blog...
the navigation is omg!
but the contents are... ZzZZZzzZZZ
that what i thought would help... was actually the very hinderence and reason things coming to this....
not that i'm saying it would have been different... but it did put things in motion....
puts everything in perspective now eh...?
go ahead and mock my naivety in that case...
you guys seriously need to check out ansel's blog...
the navigation is omg!
but the contents are... ZzZZZzzZZZ
Sunday, April 13, 2008
running away....
felt like primary school all over again... 184 mah... looked quite alike... at that time la... of course not now...
duh...
seriously... i dreamt u died... attended the furneral even... lol... but yar la... maybe it's some kinda representation or something...
it's my way of running away i guess.... okay la... some things you gotta know when to stop... feel quite relaxed now... whatever happens is not my problem any more... but thanks for the memories...
i see things for what they are already... it's all much clearer to me.... and i was deluding myself after all... aiyah... self pwn againz...
falling back into what i was before then...
newcastle drew this week with portsmouth... ok la... no goals... but i'll see if i can post up some highlights...
oh and i bought a psp slim!! woots...!
duh...
seriously... i dreamt u died... attended the furneral even... lol... but yar la... maybe it's some kinda representation or something...
it's my way of running away i guess.... okay la... some things you gotta know when to stop... feel quite relaxed now... whatever happens is not my problem any more... but thanks for the memories...
i see things for what they are already... it's all much clearer to me.... and i was deluding myself after all... aiyah... self pwn againz...
falling back into what i was before then...
newcastle drew this week with portsmouth... ok la... no goals... but i'll see if i can post up some highlights...
oh and i bought a psp slim!! woots...!
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
for God, king and country... and just maybe....you
sometimes i wonder what i put myself through such things for...
going overseas... sucks la...
wisdom teeth extraction... not a pleasant experience at all... and the thought of being in pain at home... while others are out there having fun together...makes it all the more worse...
going home everyday...
you could have said something then to prevent all of this... but definitely not now i know...
how come it's so easy for others....? unfortunately i'm not that simple minded to brush such things off.... i just can't....
am i wasting time...?
the dreams seem all the more futher from reality... it's just not fair...
and the ones who tell you otherwise... really don't know what they are talking about...
going overseas... sucks la...
wisdom teeth extraction... not a pleasant experience at all... and the thought of being in pain at home... while others are out there having fun together...makes it all the more worse...
going home everyday...
you could have said something then to prevent all of this... but definitely not now i know...
how come it's so easy for others....? unfortunately i'm not that simple minded to brush such things off.... i just can't....
am i wasting time...?
the dreams seem all the more futher from reality... it's just not fair...
and the ones who tell you otherwise... really don't know what they are talking about...
Sunday, April 06, 2008
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
ok... i give up...
1. Pretending also need enery leh.
2. I'm tired.
3. Thats is all i have to say.
4. Thank You.
niffty... very SAF like...
enough is enough... and i guess it's time i saw the limits for what they were... it's not a matter of whether things can be fixed or not... it's whether they deserve to be fixed... but in this case... it can't be fixed anyways...
certain actions can be explained away... but there's only so many straws that one can allow to be broken before one snaps... lol... nice trump card...
i'm not going to try anymore... the die is/was/has been cast... take your pick...
a change of scenery might just do me some good...
lol... what's wrong with all of you...? excuse me for tonight... sheesh... and i was just thinking a while ago that obliviousity was the way to go...
2. I'm tired.
3. Thats is all i have to say.
4. Thank You.
niffty... very SAF like...
enough is enough... and i guess it's time i saw the limits for what they were... it's not a matter of whether things can be fixed or not... it's whether they deserve to be fixed... but in this case... it can't be fixed anyways...
certain actions can be explained away... but there's only so many straws that one can allow to be broken before one snaps... lol... nice trump card...
i'm not going to try anymore... the die is/was/has been cast... take your pick...
a change of scenery might just do me some good...
lol... what's wrong with all of you...? excuse me for tonight... sheesh... and i was just thinking a while ago that obliviousity was the way to go...
7 words...
you wrote 7 words... well... i counted around 70... sadly not something i was looking forward to...
lol... the last post gave me an excuse to play YUI's happy birthday to you you....
anyways... guess almost everyone would have known about my posting by now... wisdom tooth extraction on the 8th... still wondering about the ippt part though... lol... can't pass...
yea well... it's all too late to back out now isn't it...? i really did hope you would say something then...
maybe because it's kinda confirmed... i dunno... but i'll rather remain oblivious to everything... the delusional stage is over...
so much for my happy ending isn't it...?
lol... which brings me to the next song on my list to play...
newcastle won again last sunday...! sorry it took me so long to post the goals up... hard to find sia... winning 4-1 at white hart lane... it doesn't get much better than that.... and when even butt.. a defensive mid... comes up to score... you know that king kev is in charge...
lol... the last post gave me an excuse to play YUI's happy birthday to you you....
anyways... guess almost everyone would have known about my posting by now... wisdom tooth extraction on the 8th... still wondering about the ippt part though... lol... can't pass...
yea well... it's all too late to back out now isn't it...? i really did hope you would say something then...
maybe because it's kinda confirmed... i dunno... but i'll rather remain oblivious to everything... the delusional stage is over...
so much for my happy ending isn't it...?
lol... which brings me to the next song on my list to play...
newcastle won again last sunday...! sorry it took me so long to post the goals up... hard to find sia... winning 4-1 at white hart lane... it doesn't get much better than that.... and when even butt.. a defensive mid... comes up to score... you know that king kev is in charge...
