dreams awakening....

strange awakening dream...

all the thoughts and events i tried to suppress previously suddenly surfaced... i just felt that everything thus far to be honest was really a joke... i really wouldn't believe it to be anything more than a work of fiction... if i didn't see it first hand...

ok... seperately they were mere single events... but well... events enough to set things in stone...

fine... ignore them... but now putting one and one and one and one and one and one together...

actually... forget it... i knew from the start... and as i said... i suppressed them...

i remember how i only asked for a photocopy... lazy to copy la... lit lessons mah... but i was presented with something so personally crafted... power sia... but lol... gues personal craftsmanship is too overated these days... anywhere also can find one... it's the same then... it's the same now...

seriously thought the filmsy excuses were genuine... ah well... as if... knowing the truth makes it so much harder to swallow....


please tell me i detect something brotherly somewhere inside... but NO it's not for me... you know you know...


maybe this tour might just do me some good... 'cos all that's transpired has been really disappointing...

can i be sure for once...?

maybe if it were any serious at all... nothing would stand in the way...

heck... i would even be going out my way to make it happen... so what does that say now...? can't be that it's just me ya...?

strange how easily things get brushed off at a drop of rain...

(lol... i couldn't think of anything else that drops more often here....)

wonder if it was just a matter of speech or courtesy... 'cos the flimsy excuses in the end aren't enough to support it... hmm... truth is it doesn't really matter does it...? 'cos it never did previously...

sorry... i'm just questioning the supposed unfairness here...

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i just don't see why i have to be punished for their mistakes... just because of some lame ANCIENT ruling...? surely there must be a better way...

surely there has to be a better way...

updates and a summer song...

"forever of my dreams... and only in my dreams"

over a month in... sorry for not updating... quite troublesome la... rather impossible to get used to life here... work will always be work... oh well...

experienced a minor tremor the other day... and a typhoon supposedly blew past us... so there's still the level of excitement here...


you know... i used to ask how they could grow up... and then i realised... the answer was always there... being answered every single day... so now i know...


anyways in something non-related... the truth is when i asked the question... i was hoping for the simple answer of "dunno, see how lor"... or something like that... but definitely not sec 4... and so that's how things ended up...

lol... how time flies... although it could do much good to fly faster now...

and now... this... how things sway... i wonder if it even crossed your mind... if you even knew or care...

thought i would try asking today... but the fingers just wouldn't type...

nah...

maybe later... but it doesn't matter right...? it will still be as how the first line goes...

'cos now i know how they grew up...