well would i be wrong to say that everyone was informed about the little change but me...?
sigh... how things change...
but why do the show-offs still get to show-off...? and even more and more...?
God probably thought of the sin to fit the commandment instead... so that it would be (confirm, guarantee pruss chop) broken....
"hmm... do not envy eh? a.k.a teh most dangerous sin of 'em all!! sounds cool..! ok... err... now let's define envy..."
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
more than just a powerpoint...
in the crossing of paths each day...
i wished we could be closer than a powerpoint....
but how could something like that be so hard...?
'cos this is not the way i had planned for it to go...
i just wish i knew what to do...
i just wish i knew what to do...
and i just wish that God would help me through...
i would be lying if i said i was fine...
and school's been just so tough...
yea... it hurts...
and i'm sick and tired...
but so what...?
it's rinse and repeat tomorrow...
i wished we could be closer than a powerpoint....
but how could something like that be so hard...?
'cos this is not the way i had planned for it to go...
i just wish i knew what to do...
i just wish i knew what to do...
and i just wish that God would help me through...
i would be lying if i said i was fine...
and school's been just so tough...
yea... it hurts...
and i'm sick and tired...
but so what...?
it's rinse and repeat tomorrow...
Monday, October 19, 2009
a setback...
i felt really disappointed and discouraged... it really wasn't what i was expecting to see... actually... i think i'm really really scared...
and so i kept asking Him what had happened... but no answer as usual... i did pray about it... i really did... so this definitely came as a shock... and i don't know if i will be able to overcome this...
maybe it was a tinge of over confidence? i really don't think so... but i'm trusting that there's a reason for everything... and i do have faith that come the next round... i would be able to do it through Him...
it's actually okay if i get disappointed... but it's just the money that i hate to waste... and it's all that i've ever been able to be actually happy about till now...
actually what else can i do now...? it's all in His hands...
i'm sorry for everything God.... i really need help
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people can't seem to criticise enough don't they..? oh yes... the irony... but seriously now... what ever happens... i still think that the song i wrote was quite an achievement in any case...
if only i had the voice and skills to play the keyboard and do a nice recording...
and so i kept asking Him what had happened... but no answer as usual... i did pray about it... i really did... so this definitely came as a shock... and i don't know if i will be able to overcome this...
maybe it was a tinge of over confidence? i really don't think so... but i'm trusting that there's a reason for everything... and i do have faith that come the next round... i would be able to do it through Him...
it's actually okay if i get disappointed... but it's just the money that i hate to waste... and it's all that i've ever been able to be actually happy about till now...
actually what else can i do now...? it's all in His hands...
i'm sorry for everything God.... i really need help
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people can't seem to criticise enough don't they..? oh yes... the irony... but seriously now... what ever happens... i still think that the song i wrote was quite an achievement in any case...
if only i had the voice and skills to play the keyboard and do a nice recording...
Thursday, October 01, 2009
decisions...
and so somewhere along the way you realise it's time..... that things should have to be different from now...
it's something that won't change no matter what... and praying about it... well... i dunno... but i feel it kinda defeats the purpose and demeans everything... it really is rather lame to do so...
it's true... but unfortunately i don't have the necessary strength to change things... go in a different direction or something...
the last time or so took me at least 2 years to make up my mind.... to decide...
hmm...
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something i learnt about myself during the last recess week.... my favourite pastime is to look for antivirus, firewalls and antispyware proggies to use... lol... i could just spend the entire day contrasting and comparing... trolling through forums to look at the comments to see which one is better...
where then i'll turn off the computer and think about it.... and den later on i'll go back and devour every piece of information again....
and this process actually takes place a few times before i come to a decision to what proggie i want....
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kinda tells you how much thought process is put into before i make any decision... and so when things don't work out... i take much longer to recover from disappointments...
oh... and i hate it when people attempt to tell me to do something that they don't know any better... i mean i wouldn't tell you what to do in such a situation... so what gives you the right to tell me...? especially so when i know you don't know what you're talking about....
it's something that won't change no matter what... and praying about it... well... i dunno... but i feel it kinda defeats the purpose and demeans everything... it really is rather lame to do so...
it's true... but unfortunately i don't have the necessary strength to change things... go in a different direction or something...
the last time or so took me at least 2 years to make up my mind.... to decide...
hmm...
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something i learnt about myself during the last recess week.... my favourite pastime is to look for antivirus, firewalls and antispyware proggies to use... lol... i could just spend the entire day contrasting and comparing... trolling through forums to look at the comments to see which one is better...
where then i'll turn off the computer and think about it.... and den later on i'll go back and devour every piece of information again....
and this process actually takes place a few times before i come to a decision to what proggie i want....
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kinda tells you how much thought process is put into before i make any decision... and so when things don't work out... i take much longer to recover from disappointments...
oh... and i hate it when people attempt to tell me to do something that they don't know any better... i mean i wouldn't tell you what to do in such a situation... so what gives you the right to tell me...? especially so when i know you don't know what you're talking about....
