not even going to try anymore....

just came back and i turned on the laptop to see if my lecturer replied on the meetup...


nada...


went to see UP in 3D and was fairly disappointed... first of all the actual 3D-ness of it all was like only 2%.... and all the "so touching-ness" and tear-jerking-ness... didn't really present itself to me... the only part i thought was not too bad was when (spoiler... anyways it's at the end la) the old man represented the father to pin the badge on the scout.... only the mother turned up... so this begs the questions...

now this boys and girls... is where my lit teacher would have stopped the friggin show and asked... DOES THE BOY'S FATHER REALLY EXIST? I MEAN DOES HE KNOW ABOUT THE EVENT? IS HE IN THE COUNTRY? IS HE EVEN ALIVE??? AND WHAT ABOUT THE CONCEPT OF LYING... DID THE BOY LIE ABOUT HIS FATHER...? OR DID THE FATHER LIE TO THE BOY ABOUT BEING AT THE CEREMONY...? WHAT IS THE DIRECTOR TRYING TO PORTRAY HERE...? DISCUSS!!!!


but.... that's just me....



anyways... on my way home... my thoughts ran for a brief 30 secs... ranging from wad my tutor would reply... how i was going to answer him... i also played out something else in my head... and then... i caught a hold of myself....

what the hell am i doing...?

if it's anything i've learnt.... is not to play out events in my head....

for goodness sake... please remember that.... for :

a) it always doesn't come true...
b) refer to a)....
c) i don't see the point at all in envisioning something if... refer to b)


so i'm really really tired of trying... really really tired... -.-... if i take time and effort to do something... i would really like it to work out the way i planned it...

do i or don't i go back to policies that fit me 2 years ago.... will it even fit me now...?

so maybe it comes down to the whatever is in His will... will be done... and maybe i won't even have to complain or lift a finger at all.... and everything falls pleasantly into place....

or maybe... i don't know... but winston's threat is still hanging over me like this fever that comes and goes...

i'm scared....

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oh and one more thing.... i realised your words can't be trusted anymore....

friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend... friend... not friend...

it just goes on and on forever doesn't it...