fading away..

i only want to ask what happened to those previous times...?

or were they just a simple passing fad to you...?


these days... i'm really scared to even try... but i still do it at each opportunity i can...

why...?

because... i have to... otherwise all of this would be worthless...


please don't make me change the picture... i really dread that day... i wish i hadn't said what matters most to me... what i've come to expect for everything to be worthwhile...

don't take it away from me...


because that would mean having to pick up the shattered pieces yet again...


sigh... the past few days and weeks have been driving me crazy... with nothing to counteract it all...

if only... you know... if only...