or would it be better if it just remained a dream...

i could only ask...

ask like i've always done....

don't think i'm asking for too much... am i...?

i listed my reasons....

listing it like i've always done...

they are legitimate reasons... aren't they...?

it's almost an everyday usual plea .... why is this one so difficult then...? what makes it any different...? what was created... can be taken away so easily rite...?

and each day you realise that nothing's change... it just saps your faith... and you belief away... it's just hard... the mental and emotional hurt... no one can understand....


in the past... the reason was so that i wouldn't feel so hurt... but you know... things changed... and the most important thing now... isn't me anymore.... i want to believe that it was a sign too.... and if so... more than anything... the reason becomes so much more important....

damn it... the reason isn't me anymore!

because my happiness isn't important already... if it had to be at the cost of my own feelings... then so be it... i wouldn't be surprised at anything worse now....

i only want to give my best.... and nothing less...

otherwise... i just rather it was a dream...

so please.... take it ALL away...