maybe because the things i do don't matter much at all....

and as she took another step... with the wind blowing across her face... wiping the tears away... for the first time in a long time... she finally felt she was free....
- vague excerpt from some book.... (eh i don't remember la!!)

no one can fault me for not trying my best.... because i did... but being held back by circumstances beyond my control was never my choice since day 1.... who am i to argue if He decided that i'd have to walk this damn path then...?

imagine that... dumb freakin mirror... kena pwned by some reflective piece of glass....

i did ever think of pressing the shut off button... and let the wind blow across my face... and actually be free for once.... i remember telling myself if things didn't work out... i might just try that...

but i dont want them to misunderstand... people would definitely jump to the wrong conclusions... and no one would ever bother to realise the sum of my reasons....


it's true what li hong said what... "you morning let people bully you... work so hard... face so black... and then at night you emo because of.... eh seriously ah... your life sucks...."

crap la... i also know... BUT WHAT TO DO...?

it's not some simple cough, fever, flu or sore throat... wave one magic wand... sleep... next morning wake up and all is well already...

HEALED...

when did i realise it...?

probably when i was young... and my maid said that it would work... err... so apparently not then... thanks for trying anyways....

and i'd be crazy to even contemplate carrying on at it alone....


sigh...