i wish i had a penny for my thoughts...

i just wanna say that i've kept the chatter that i thought were important... i thought it would be something nice to look back on... to remind myself what i was doing... or basically i just wanted the power of hindsight... to see if i could find out where it all went wrong... again...

i really don't wanna go back to square one...

unfortunately it feels so much like everything before was dreamt... and now it's time to start again...

Ecclesiastes... isn't it...?



the last 3 tries were made up of responses of feigned ignorance... i guess it is a win-win situation this way... because as long as there's that inkling of hope... there's always something to gain... so who the hell in the right mind would go and deny that..? would you say no to something free...?


oh yea... you're one of them...


i'll admit i'm the first to stretch out when something free is put before me... but i would at least make sure that i deserved the freebie in the first place... that's the main difference....

do you know what does that mean...?

i'm asking if you deserve it...
i'm asking if you even know what it means to deserve it...
i'm asking if you really think that these freebies are given to other people too... or are you the only one getting it...
i'm asking you to be fair...
i'm asking you to stop playing dumb and ignorant and hope that everything will just go away and dissolve by itself...


this isn't the innocence i grew up to know...


if anyone of you knows someone else who really knows what it means to deserve something... let me know...