when common sense prevails...

someone please tell me that day was a dream... a joke...

because it meant so much to me... it meant everything...

but it seems like it's not even a passing mention in your memories...

i would really feel much better... i could at least laugh it off... unfortunately not... it was real...

and it starting to feel like a more atas hui ee attempt... because no matter what the few interested parties tried to give... the one which mattered... was the one who gave NOTHING... but stood there... looked the part and played his little instrument...

talk about trying your best... save it... must have forgotten the golden rule that if you had to try THAT had... you would probably fail in the end anyways... it's just like that...



looking for the cd this morning... found it... and opened it up... and then common sense came to me...

was i seriously delusional...? did i think it could happen...?

how come common sense didn't stop me in the first place... and now it was trying to make sense of my actions... making a fool out of me...?

21 years of prayers and counting...


sorry for sprouting all that nonsense in the other post... but if it's the last thing i hope...

the one better NOT be that faggot...


thus another sleepless night for me...