apparently...

spent the first night back telling the guys about home leave...

i related everything that happened... and apparently... according to them... there's still that little bit of hope....

i wish i could be that optimistic...

because if one could do all that... but yet still turn around... and say those words... then where do i stand really...?

apparently... it's normal... because yi hang has gone through all that with his "c-cup" (thats how she was refered to...) and more... and yea... still nothing...

when to me... all that would matter... is a home cooked meal with the folks.... so pardon me if i took it for granted that it was a done deal between you guys... and i was genuinely suprised when those words came out....

okay and relieved too... ^-^...

still in some ways... i don't totally buy the whole story.... but that's my own problem...


sheesh... i shouldn't be bothering about this really... with what... more than 6 months to go here... the work is already piling up... i can't walk for more than a distance in camp without some one saying to me.... "jap! eh i got claim to do..." / "jap! when u settling the claims?" ..... spare me pls... there's alot else for me to catch up on... and contrary to popular belief... i do have claims of my own... i'm just as anxious to do it....

and then there's bills and AORs to settle... there's the remittance for dec... there's the expenditure summary to do....

but apparently it's quite obvious that even eileen could tell... it's affecting the way i reply... so really sorry for sounding a little down...


here's wishing in vain that things will improve...


better start working on getting those mystery boxes already...