holding back...

i tried hard not to let it affect me today... think i did well...

total time spent sad -> 1 min
total time spent disappointed -> 10 mins
total time spent depressed -> eh... still counting

i know... but it's good improvement already... truth is i'm surprised at the way i'm taking it... or rather holding back....

at least one can hide their depressed feelings... as i've always done... maybe the true impact hasn't had time to settle in yet... oh well... now you know how devious people can be... knives hidden behind a smile... why you slick and slimy... acted as if nothing had happened at all... thinking about it now... it makes all the sense...

worst of all...? they were supposed to be friends who could be trusted...

all's fair blah blah blah blah ... i guess...

looking through YUI vids on youtube now... will post them up later... do take a look ya?