decisions...

and so somewhere along the way you realise it's time..... that things should have to be different from now...

it's something that won't change no matter what... and praying about it... well... i dunno... but i feel it kinda defeats the purpose and demeans everything... it really is rather lame to do so...

it's true... but unfortunately i don't have the necessary strength to change things... go in a different direction or something...

the last time or so took me at least 2 years to make up my mind.... to decide...

hmm...
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something i learnt about myself during the last recess week.... my favourite pastime is to look for antivirus, firewalls and antispyware proggies to use... lol... i could just spend the entire day contrasting and comparing... trolling through forums to look at the comments to see which one is better...

where then i'll turn off the computer and think about it.... and den later on i'll go back and devour every piece of information again....

and this process actually takes place a few times before i come to a decision to what proggie i want....
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kinda tells you how much thought process is put into before i make any decision... and so when things don't work out... i take much longer to recover from disappointments...

oh... and i hate it when people attempt to tell me to do something that they don't know any better... i mean i wouldn't tell you what to do in such a situation... so what gives you the right to tell me...? especially so when i know you don't know what you're talking about....