a setback...

i felt really disappointed and discouraged... it really wasn't what i was expecting to see... actually... i think i'm really really scared...

and so i kept asking Him what had happened... but no answer as usual... i did pray about it... i really did... so this definitely came as a shock... and i don't know if i will be able to overcome this...

maybe it was a tinge of over confidence? i really don't think so... but i'm trusting that there's a reason for everything... and i do have faith that come the next round... i would be able to do it through Him...

it's actually okay if i get disappointed... but it's just the money that i hate to waste... and it's all that i've ever been able to be actually happy about till now...

actually what else can i do now...? it's all in His hands...

i'm sorry for everything God.... i really need help
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people can't seem to criticise enough don't they..? oh yes... the irony... but seriously now... what ever happens... i still think that the song i wrote was quite an achievement in any case...

if only i had the voice and skills to play the keyboard and do a nice recording...