knowing next to nuts... or even less....

i realised that no matter how much i tried... it wouldn't make a difference after all...



i think already i've tried my best... all i can only do now... is hope... and MAYBE pray...


because that's the very basics... the simple things... the first steps that one would take...



i've taken those step... or at least tried... picked up everything i could... and i've even tried to move on from there.... but it's not for me to do alone...



or maybe i really don't know anything at all... and it's just been so discouraging all this time...





the 5 year plan seems my only viable option for now... 4 years of NUS if i can last that long... and 1 year to get something stable... and then... i dunno... tw to find wa?... 20 years old then... far fetched... but i think it's more real to me than anything now...