realisation...

or maybe i'm just not cut out for this at all...

but i still hold on to the past...

believing and hoping...

finally met up with ben... daniel and ghim hong... went out to eat... drink... eat... and of course talk and catch up about army life... comparing our vocations... lol... not too bad a day...



you know... as i walked along today... looking around... the suppressed realisation that i had kept for so long slowly started to surface...

it's true isn't it...? that i'm not cut out for this... everyone has their fair share of help and support from others... but do i...?

it was never going to happen... but if only He had spent a little more time...

'cos life's nothing more than like a quarter of a fish and three quarters of a duck rite now... and i don't see it getting any better...