still wondering...

i don't know... but suddenly this makes everything quite meaningless...

the weekdays of slogging... to hell with it...

and while people rest in khh over the weekend... you don't have the approval done... too busy... and it's true...


apparently people who work less get rewarded wih the rank... cards... gifts... and yes... even the DVT at night... and deservedly so...

no logic totally...



i realised that everything done is seriously useless... and it doesn't make a difference... people will still treat you the same way no matter what... because at the very basic level... they don't appreciate it that much...

no matter what...




i don't know what sucks more... staying here... facing that work everyday with zero rewards... or going back...

no reason to look forward to either....


and where have all the good friends gone...? you know... the ones who would care enough to warn you before you get hurt without you asking them... and definitely not answer a "dunno" or "huh" even if you ask them... apparently you guys just like to think... "aiya... we'll just let the road signs warn him... not our business anyways..." 'cos yea... the road is supposed to have signs anyways... but please... if you know the fucking road is ending say something...!


wasting my breath here...



bah... it's just me my fault and i... so i'll tell you i'm sorry... case closed... as simple as that...

too bad it wasn't next week already... or it would have made one hell of a birthday present...



no... i would to go back to august 1986 and give them one big tight slap each and ask them to wake up their ideas...


now that was i wanted to tell you anyways...