why of all times now...?

it should have been settled already...

but why of all times now...? there was a sense of disappointment at how everything had played out... why couldn't things stay status quo...? and out of the blue i had to have THAT dream... the dream that would seal my thoughts... my feelings... and determined how i reacted to things... why of all times now?

never more have i wanted to be different.... WRONG!... never more have i PRAYED to be DIFFERENT... some one good enough... it just isn't being fair to me at all... i put in my all... and more than that...

CONFIDENCE? not gonna help you one bit... damn that dream.... it hurts my friend... it hurts...

but it's simply my fault... my faulty days of purpose...