so whats new...? other than empty words, lies, broken promises and shattered dreams....

"...By the end of my first hour on duty, I was enlightened. I knew what it was about guard duty that was so intolerable.

Boredom.

Guard duty was just so unbelievably boring. The seconds didn't go tick-tick-tick. They went tick. Pause. Tick. Pause. Tick."
- Michael Chiang, Army Daze

and damn it's true... and i wasn't even supposed to be doing it... thanks to my "buddy" who so coincidentally was attending B... i was chosen instead...

"it gonna be a good experience...", i tried to console myself... TRIED...

friends i told didn't offer much consolation... they were probably laughing their heads off at my predicament... sigh...

so there i was doing sentry at the ferry terminal... the very first line of defence to any would be intruders... yea yea...

(prowling might have been fun... getting to explore tekong and stuff... but walking all over wasn't exactly my cup of tea...)

the first shift i checked my watch at exactly half hour intervals...
the second...? at every 5 painful minutes...

argh... the lesser said the better...

went back to company line at 7... slept till 11... then i fell sick... the "tekong cough" they call it... and i always have a weakness for cough... coughing quite badly now... thank goodness there's phlegm... helps to soften the impact of the cough... and coupled up with a flu... just too bad then... my theory is that the "tekong cough" was started by a disgruntled cookhouse cook who finally got tired of receiving negative surveys and decided to teach us recruits a lesson...

seriously... i'm joking... but it COULD be true...

having some trouble with my section mates... but it's nothing new... even those who i rarely talk to start talking crap... strange ain't it...?

anyways... field camp's up next... and with my cough and flu... i hope it won't be too much of a hindrance... pls be praying for me...

didn't hear anything again... so i took the first step...

...

on tuesday night i bought you a gift... and we chatted...
on friday night... we played a game together...

it's only when reality hits you right back in the face... that you wake up again... panting... and you look at the sorry state you have become... hard to go back to sleep after that... so i just tossed and turned till it was time...

dreams suck alot... don't you know...?

was on the whole day... but nothing from you... oh well... nvm... seems you already have some one else in mind... taking you to all those nice places and sutff...

i'm really trying hard to forget... put you out of my mind... but you know... it's HARD...

till the next bout of "delusions of legitimate fouls" comes along then...